This mindful stuff is very effective and terribly up to the minute in my work too. I've noticed that what I say is affected by the people I am with. If I'm with critical people, I criticise; if I'm with funny people I joke and laugh; if I'm with articulate people, I'm more articulate. I'm not happy with this state of affairs. I want to be me whomsoever I am with. I want to be able to maintain my integrity and say what I think along with thinking about what I say. So change #22.
I know it's pretty normal to reflect the people we spend time with, but I'm not sure how many people are quite as changeable/malleable as me. Also I'm not sure why I do it. It could be that I'm just a wishy washy person who cannot stand her ground or it could be that I like to make other people feel comfortable, at my own cost. I'm hoping that a spot of mindful speaking will clarify things for me, and let me know more about myself, while revealing more of myself.
- No alcohol – Having enjoyed a couple of glasses of wine, I then had a stonking headache in the middle of the night. Interesting
- Mindful eating – This is so much healthier for me, and actually I have stopped fretting about what other people say to me
- Daily body scan – This needs to be done properly, skimping is not working. If I cannot give myself 45 mins a day to feel better physically, it is a sad state of affairs
- Charity shop shopping – I've just remembered I was thinking about having a sort out. I will do by the end of the week
- Mindful breathing every hour – this too has slipped a little. I do it as and when, but I want to be more conscious so am going to find a way to remember more consistently
- Remembering my friends – I have even started to think of friends who I might not have seen for a while and consciously bring them back
- Smiling regularly – 'As you like it' at the West Yorkshire Playhouse, gave me a week's worth of smiles and laughs, but I still have every intention of smiling all week too.
- Help if and when I can – have worked too long and hard this week, which means I have said 'yes' without really appreciating the consequences for myself. If life ends up all about making others feel better, without being kind to myself, it is far too unbalanced.
- Italian conversation class – I loved it. I have been practising and am waiting for my CDs. Anthony and I had a chat briefly when he arrived home from work one evening, and I spoke in Italian to Christopher when he called from Italy.
- Becoming a blogger – this is fun, but I feel a sense of obligation to keep it up. Not sure if it is to myself, or my audience
- Writing 10 mins daily – little bits here and there. I'm wondering about starting an entity that I just add 10 minutes' worth of writing to each day.
- Drinking a glass of water every hour – this has slipped with the breathing so I am on a mission to improve. I feel it has amazing benefits.
- Thinking about it, before I say yes or no – see above!
- Having my eyes tested – am slowly starting to adjust to my new specs
- Walking in the fresh air every day – this is proving to be an impossible challenge, but I'm not ready to admit defeat
- Pilates core exercise throughout day – still doing this
- Listening to my needs – this is very much about eating and drinking at the moment, but am also aware of other needs that are not being addressed like socialising and exercising. Watch this space
- Mindful spending – very aware of what I am spending at the moment. It has been a tight month and I have still managed to save a little for a rainy day
- Neck exercises – could do more
- Accepting compliments – not receiving many, but when I am, I try really hard to just say 'thank you'
- Really saying thank you to people – enjoying this. Am doing it a lot with people at work, who work for me. I like it
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